going deaf but really going blind

a black, black void as black as night top ten:

1. "...Do you really want to live in the same room with anyone?"
2. welcome to planet m.f.
3. broken wire magazine voice-mail reviews//tears will stream
4. oh, well, i would occupy wall street but i keep running into these ghosts i know
5. ever heard the one about the guy & his two cacti?
6. psychick video-on-demand
7. jerry misses you, too. (but i tell everyone it isn't true)
8. practical garbage in my shrine
9. terrible distance as symptom of phobic flight
10. AKA 2 close 2 touch


that thunderclap ov thrill brings no lightning strike ov lucidity.

as the blood drains from yr face

'i thought i just had a stomach ache' top ten:

1. digital sigil distracts from the poison i swallowed
2. reflexive gnosis; the light clicks off behind yr eyes
3. i love you, i'm sorry, i did not sign up for a long distance relationship
4. table at mcdonald's for one, plz
5. almost 2 years & it still kills, i mean aches, i mean hurts, i mean its okay forget it
6. saline solution dripz from my third eye
7. acquiescing to obsolescence//embracing invisibility
8. walt whitman bled into the leaves ov grass
9. iknowiamluckyiknowiamluckyiknowiamlucky( x 23 )
10.the dream where the wolf drowned the bear and that is it that is all



'finality is reached when ye have learned to digest everything.'

been down & gone so long

being chased over relative fields ov time & space top ten:

1. baddest bytch syndrome (ew to death)
2. seeping, creeping loser lifestyle
3. forgot to do my sigils & ye came right back
4. pisces paranoia
5. twin bed anxiety; don't cut off yr arm, i'll cut off my limbs
6. california grrlfriend (see also: CALIFORNIA, grrlfriend!)
7. dear carnegie hall/ love, liza minelli
8. phussy palace
9. nuthing but an accessory, datz me (studded bracelet personality)
10. "i got a new diet. bread & candy, no water."



everything is so kewl that it's kind of twzted that it's sort ov scary that it's definitely creepy that it's really dismal.

caffeine & ON DEMAND

"you look like you shop at the gap" top ten:

1. private life by oingo boingo(THAT IS OUR SONG)
2. ASSMAN
3. the things said in between the wii & glee
4. the son of clam
5. tapping you on the shoulder
6. attention soaked//still thirsty
7. caravan of my dreamz
8. how to make a bed
9. IMDbaby
10. 'we cannot even sleep/we just wake up/nothing is always something'


between all the euphemisms, the sentiment is too true xo

I GAVE MY ALL

truly it is about a lot of different things top ten:

1.“i love that tattoo on your hand. you look so beautiful. you have a sexy body.“
2. pinky ring under the work bench//things one could search for except for that i cannot
3. EHHHMMMMM EWWWWWW. YR REEKING, KID.
4. oh no air signs
5. okay, can i tell you all that the rose quartz works!
6. double ride mtn bike fixed gear high heeled wytch bootz
7. voracious appetites leading the way
8. infinite alterity//infintesimal alterations uv state
9. missing sleeping with a what-are-you-six
10. say say buh bye say say buh bye



i do not have the technology to find yr particles of dilaton anymore.

well, funk fug fuck

WARNING, not a top ten//untraditional post:

I am in Europe (Rome precisely). Last nite my bike was stolen out of my house.
It is (as many 'readers' know) a red 48 cm SOMEC with riser bars, Chris King headset, Campagnolo cranks, chrome Mavic rims, and some stupid yellow fancy seat.
More than all of that it was a mythical transportation unit that made me extremely happy. It feels better to ride than anything else I have ever known and I love it like a stupid consumerist freak. Look out for it, let me know. Tell your friends to look out for it. I will definitely pay a $$$$$ reward for it's return. To come: top ten about all of the worldly goods I have lost permanently or temporarily on this trip. Maybe instead of a trip to Europe; I need 2 get off the planet.
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_nmQvQIiLNQs/SlQPyqNMkFI/AAAAAAAAA3k/WeNtVi7xbjI/s1600-h/bikes+001.jpg

i hope yr listening.

completely positive things about ten different people top ten:

1. store-front daydreams: yr growing up so right, alright?
2. mystical pop star paparazzi: tapping into my digi-vid spirituality
3. sacred departure festivus planner: vert's keeping me safe, hope yee can transcend my 'net negativity && pick up my astral warmth
4. wyz womyn of y'urp: ye'll truly never walk alone again//ying yang guitar strap symbolism
5. young jerry seinfeld: saving up a million jokes to tell yi upon my return
6. photographic muse trying 2 get east: constantly inspired, excited to witness yr symmetrical year
7. leather daddy old lady: wild island brave-womyn "I AM SO PROUD"
8. hotmail rail king: don't know how else 2 tell yi that yr v v vig important 2 me
9. 'class'ic 'instrument'ation: subconscious epistemological roller coaster ride starring you//soo much too much 2 say
10.tiny sacred chip: sell the slap, yr needed on another continent & NOW


an end to the obtuse!TW-S, AF, KMjr, JG, PC, CB, JP, VS, CA, KP: i care a lot all the time and for all time!

TASTE THE CONTINENT

meggie's dream dinner depiction top ten:

1. swiss cheese in switzerland
2. chocolate in berlin
3. crepes in paris
4. pizzas on the piazza
5. turkey in turkey
6. cadbury eggs in london
7. danish in denmark
8. swedish fish in stockholm
9. hamburger(bliss) in hamburg
10. bread crust && water in sparta


'HAD A FUNKY DREAM ABOUT PIZZA BUT I AM STILL HUNGRY.'

obviously out of context

why be warm when it is easier to be cold? top ten:

1. 'IS EVERYONE HAVING FUN TONITE?'
2. hand, foot, & mouth deja vu
3. my head at the foot of yr bed
4. hey, you, yes, you, i am trying to not quote you this 'ten' around
5. samuel delaney and the great escapes
6. libra descending
7. more than just eating meals together
8. omens at bedford & halsey
9. the idea of anyone having sex with me is ridiculous.
10. fugging crunchy frumpy skuzzard shig bag lyfe//cannot scrub hard enough



holding yi with mi for what seems like forever, but still always all alone.

GO TELL THE BEES

new pool isn't as fresh as we hoped top ten:

1. saves the day youtube playlist? yes, and really
2. my grrl walking death
3. helmsley's time tunnel(she left all of her $$$ to cats)
4. 'txting-in' my affection
5. A PERMANENT RESIDENT
6. listless lethargy
7. are you downloading him?
8. ant pupae consumption; "i'll try any antidote."
9. how special is his silly hood?
10. blame it on borderline personality disorder


just lying in bed begging the cone of obliscence to be real.

vehemently haunted

moving on so long later top ten:

1. casual stories about you
2. perpetual cellular silence
3. "i guess i'll either get over it or i'll kill myself."
4. the gift of agent cooper
5. wuthering heights revisionist history
6. i just
7. want you
8. to know
9. i am
10. still sad.



the next time will be the last time we have to talk about it.

'is it for me or about me?'

DIRT THE FILM top ten:

1. 2 be real, i could've died
2. 2 be real, wish i hadn't dyed
3. life as a litterbox (*'will he be my litterbox boy?')
4. ten hours in reykjavik
5. i'm going to be drooling on yr shoulder, ma!
6. 'can you drink for free because you made out with him or something?'
7. WE WILL PRBLY BE ARGUING FOR A LONG TIME. (prophetic textual visions)
8. polyester sateen sheets/vs/400 cat fur count sheets
9. he chose jimi over jerry & i just knew
10. I am busy fucking and also being wasted!!


each time i believe yr not beautiful, you just radiate beneath the sulfur light.

still in love with everyone i ever loved

farce & circumstance top ten:

1. MY MOM IS SO SECOND WAVE
2. middle class rites of winter (yea, well, we're going to europe)
3. don't want yr forest// don't want yr field recordings
4. drnk dial
5. natural blonde ambition
6. 'they smell blood in the water.'
7. huggy bear dance party by yrself for yrself
8. reaching clumsy skate nirvana
9. cold jungle in the 90210 desert
10. i'll wear my bong if you promise 2 smeek it


burying totems deep for the magick of the 'ethnic-white' boi.

CLEAN UP CRU

not that it matters, but i am on sabbatical until my imagination becomes less inflamed.

plz don't be embarrassed.

obsessed with a. geoffrey frank top ten:

1. Dude i wanna readcatcher in the ryeagain.
2. phone stutter
3. 'i think i am going to start wearing birkenstocks.'
4. shotgun phallus exploration of rural pennsylvania
5. pro-gluten community organizer
6. heating up yr personal brand
7. teen vogue's G(ay)B(oy)F(riend); lucky grrl
8. staten island tourist//anthropological trekking
9. anne beattie psychic connection
10. five star ***** feminist, boi crust fetishist


so, like, and, okay, i will only tell you this once, yr the illest.

I COULD GO ON

woke up missing julia top ten:

1. frumpiest creepiest freakiest crunchiest mami
2. YO, EHM.
3. 'dogs are weird, they're not like cats.'
4. a move back east to be yr queen
5. 2008 myspace lurking(secretz out)
6. uncontrollable cellular happy hysteria
7. 'but he will have to wear heels to be me?'
8. empathetic darkness in slop, sludge, tears & trucks
9. pre- and post-conscious hand holding
10. reaching towards yr cabin window & proudly calling yr name


light && wonder && greatness radiate from you, we all hope you know and, also, understand. {xoxo}



two-dimensional projection of completely visceral luv by vincent victor royale

dream city dream machine

schools of impractical philosophy top ten:

1. inauthentic creepers & a dickies jumpsuit
2. the- anticlimactic -dream
3. ee zee pass//gateway to the triangular cities
4. summer stunner
5. my religion, see also: hydration vacation
6. 'i was really hoping secret boyfriend was a good guy.'
7. ARE YOU GOING 2 CBGB'S?
8. i will never wash these sheets again
9. heard yr band iz part of The Arcades Project
10.cost-benefit analysis of aversion


you never understood the way my finished works weighed lighter.

sell me yr personal brand

MY NEW FRIEND top ten:

1. * ***** **** *** ******* **** {internet hype band}-->
2. -->and all i got was this lousy mass txt
3. going to spa castle to drown
4. *****five star bytch*****
5. ontological mulligan
6. I AM SORRY, HAZEL
7. catalyst for being reminded
8. curate my face
9. 'hey, i am breaking up with my girlfriend tomorrow.'
10. amicability as physical euphemism



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(DISCREET SELF-CENSORSHIP, just in case.)

will we grow?

responsible vs. irresponsible top ten:

1. big and tru luv to ck && gcrg
2. shit-eating grin
3. (FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU, SELFISH FUCK) obliteration
4. which dad's grateful dead t-shirt?
5. union of townes
6. mami's first bachelor pad
7. a break(forever) to make yrself a human
8. 'i really enjoy luxury services.'
9. which best friend likes me best?
10. v v truly happier without you, sayne



what would we feel like if we stopped feeling bad?

freak-hole

(but, like, srsly, happy memorial day) top ten:

1. ubiquitous one-hitter
2. 'emily stebbins, i spent my last ten dollars on beer so that i could compete.'
3. secret & not-so-secret peacing
4. I LOVE YOU OR W/E.
5. plural marriage {see also: crip tripping}*
6. *what up, butt slug
7. gin blossoms by the bathroom
8. higher innocence//beyond the greatest lakes
9. goth summer combo pak
10. a week of very very new connections


still waiting for yr future birthday gift forever